“I fucking miss you.”
…would definitely be the lines I would utter to you right now… or maybe the words I would be raving about. However, the better and saner part of me tells me that doing so would be more than a foolish act — it’s a suicide.
When will I ever learn? I try so hard, damn too hard I think I’ve given up a lot of things. Or maybe I’m not trying that hard enough. Damn it. Damn you. And damn me. How long do you plan on making me suffer like this? How long will you play deaf to the pain I scream — all because of you?
Better yet, the best question would be; how long can I endure this futile existence without you in my life?
Okay OA. Wala lang. There were those moments I felt like that, but eventually it subsides. But it comes back from time to time and I just need to channel it somewhere else. Mehe. Oh well. I could use this as an inspiration to create an interesting story. :) :-bd
Pangunahan ko na, sorry kung hindi ganoon kaganda yung magagawa ko. I know halos 1 year mo na din tong hinihintay and I just want you to know na kahit hindi maganda yung pagkakasulat; everything I am to write is sincere and heartfelt.
Nakakamiss magsulat. Yung magsusulat ka lang for the sake of expressing what you feel — not because you are demanded to. Yung feeling na you write what you want. I’ve been really busy lately so hindi ko na rin natuloy yung everyday nagsusulat ako. And yun yung nakakamiss, although naisip ko din na minsan may time na ako pero I opt not to do it. Siguro ito na yung sinasabing hiatus. Pahinga rin pag may time. Mag-iisip muna ako ng isang bagay na isusulat ko for a long period of time tsaka ako babalik. Hindi yung nagmumukhang diary yung tumblr ko. -__- Anyway, marami pa rin akong pending topics to blog. And yun muna siguro aatupagin ko, so bye-bye muna sa scribbles. Hihi. :)